i'm back

i know it's been a long time since i've posted - and this opening line sounds familiar...! a lot of things have been going on, and i am continually learning. there was one situation recently where i thought God was providing something for me and I thought I was ready to have it only to find out that i was wrong. it's hard being wrong - especially when you thought that God was saying 'look how great this is!!' but like the nooma video [kickball] we watched last night at navs, sometimes we see something and think it will be good for us right now and we really really want it, but our father sees into the future and has something way better in store for us. so He tells us we can't have this thing that's right in front of us, instead, He says to wait. i guess i struggled with that for a while, the pull and tug between what i thought was best for me, and what God thinks is in my best interest.

the amazing thing, is that through all of that, i came to the realization (again), that God is in control. God is in control. He's got my plans all set, and i just have to follow His leading. and i came back to the verse that says 'delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart' (ps 37:4) - yes, He will grant us the desires of our heart, but only when our hearts fully desire HIM first! i was listening to a jeff deyo cd, and he said something that struck me - God is most glorified in us, when we are most satisfied in Him. i realized (yes, there was a lot of revelation going on for me) that lately, i had not been truly satisfied in Him. i was putting wrong priorities in place, and thinking God was in them when He really wasn't...so i took a few days to reexamine everything. Praise God, i can say i have emerged joyful and truly satisfied in God, His work in my life, how He's going to use me over this next year (which is quite exciting). i'm in a great place with God right now, and i am so thankful for it. especially as this year is winding down and i prepare to graduate in june. there are really exciting things on the frontier, and i can't wait to experience them!!


i was at home over reading week, and my brother was leading worship one sunday and he sang this song, which has quickly become my new favourite. here are the lyrics:

Unchanging- Chris Tomlin

Great is Your faithfulness
Great is Your faithfulness
You never change, You never fail O God

True are your promises
True are your promises
You never change, You never fail O God

So we raise up holy hands
To praise the holy one
Who was, and is and is to come

Wide is Your love and grace
Wide is Your love and grace
You never change, You never fail O God

So we raise up holy hands
To praise the holy one
Who was, and is and is to come